Guest Blog Post by Blossom Benedict
Symphony Of Possibilities (SOP) was the first Access class I’ve been to that I hated.
Dr. Dain Heer called me after the first SOP class in 2013 to ask me how it was, and honestly, I didn’t know what to say.
I hated that ESB was gone, (a class that was temporarily replaced with SOP but has since been happily restored). I hated all the people waving their hands around me pretending (as I saw it) to change things. I hated that I felt like I was waving my hands around, seemingly unable to change things.
I hated not feeling good at something.
That Dain wasn’t doing it for me.
That I left feeling more confused than when I came.
And that wasn’t the end of my list.
“You know Dain, I think it was probably great,” I told him “Cause it sure brought up a lot of shit for me.”
I’ve learned in my own journey with consciousness, and though hearing Dain’s repetition of this phrase, that “if you really love something, or you really hate it, there is probably something there for you.” So instead simply stating “SOP really isn’t for me,” I put on my big girl pants and signed up for another.
After my second SOP I remember exclaiming to Dain “It’s like people started to actually play their instruments. Instead of clanging on a triangle or blatting a tuba, there was the beginnings of a melody.” I felt like I’d rejoined my fourth grade marching band. A bit out of step. Not wholly in tune. But a melody could be heard. And my hatred had been replaced with something else. My hatred was now simple curiosity.
“What else can I do?” “What is it that I know?” “What’s been shifting all along that I refused to perceive?” “I wonder what SOP even is?” And doors began to open.
Watching the Symphony of Possibility unfold over the last 3 years has been an incredible gift in my life. It’s shown me a lot about my desire to get things right and how quick I am to judge rather than admit I don’t understand. It’s also shown me the gift I can be for other people.
I received this email after the last SOP I attended from a girl I had worked on.
“I have never felt so connected to myself and the universe and everything all at once. There were fireworks, stars, planets, supersonic speeds and who knows where my body was – I sure wasn’t in it. I was blown away. I now knew why other’s enjoyed SOP to such an extent.”
Well bowl me over backwards! Only three years later, I was loving SOP. And not only loving it, it appeared I was actually stepping into my own abilities to create space and change with others as well.
Do I always know what I’m doing? Not at all. Do I still wonder and doubt? Well sure. But I finally get that I’m not there to do what Dain does. Or to learn how he works with energy. I’m there do step into more of what I be and what I know.
For me, The Symphony of Possibilities is about finding your own energetic capacities and truly beginning to conduct the symphony of your own life. It’s also about the energies and spaces you can be to open up doors for others. It’s not linear. It’s not simple. And (unfortunately) you can’t get it right.
But that also means that you can’t get it wrong either.
You don’t have to know anything to begin this journey.
You don’t have to like bodies. You don’t have to get energy. You just have to show up.
And not let your shit get in the way of the magic that is truly possible.